Tanpa Nama (Her) #16

Ah, tempat ini masih sama. Sama menenangkannya. I used to love spending time here, but no more since Khiar said that cruel thing to me because this place is just like him. Khiar also has the same magic, he can calm me down just by giving me his smile.

Saya sampai duluan. Sengaja, biar saya bukan yang 'mencari-cari'. Haha, alasan ya? Bilang saja saya sudah kangen berat. :D

Saya memilih duduk di pojok tepi jendela, di tempat favorit kami. Dari sini kami dulu sering kali seenak hati memberikan komentar tentang orang yang sedang lalu lalang. Menerka-nerka apa yang sedang mereka obrolkan hanya dengan melihat ekspresi raut muka. Hihi,, i love that times. 

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Tanpa Nama (Her) #14

1 New Message. I check it, and i find his name. Khiar. Saya nggak lagi mimpi kan? Eh, jangan GR dulu, jangan-jangan cuma salah kirim, atau test contact .. haha. Why is my heart pounding so fast? It's just a text, please, saya nggak boleh lebay. Saya menarik nafas panjang, lalu membuka pesan darinya.

Kalau tujuan dia mengirim pesan ini untuk membuat saya sesak nafas, dia sudah berhasil. So, how should i reply this? I have to calm down first. Well, Khiar, where have you been? Why now? I want to ask those questions to him.

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Tanpa Nama (Her) #12

Sudah hampir dua tahun. I'm single now. Jalan-jalan kesana kemari sendiri. Menikmati hidup dengan cara berbeda. Eh, kenapa saya jadi merasa seperti orang tua? haha.. Well, teman saya tambah banyak sekarang. Hidup saya seru, menemui hal berbeda setiap hari, I am just happy.

Saya happy, tapi saya rindu. Oh, pardon my language. Aaaahh, saya kangen, kangen, kangen. Sama siapa? Sama dia, Dia yang hanya sebentar saja mampir di kehidupan saya, physically, but seems like forever stays in my life. Bingung? Yes, i am. I miss you damn so much, the man who confuse me even after years!

I grab my phone, spontaneously select his name in my phone book. Then suddenly i remember, that i had humiliated myself before by making the first move, by texting him first without being replied. Come on, i ain't a type of person who makes same mistake twice, am i? Daripada memikirkan dia yang belum tentu memikirkan saya, lebih baik saya memikirkan rencana liburan saya berikutnya. Raja Ampat, everyone?

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Tanpa Nama (Her) #10

It's been years. Now I have a boyfriend. Kami belum lama jadian, baru beberapa bulan. I can say that I am so happy now! Perhatiannya itu lho, bikin klepek-klepek! Rasanya bukan meleleh tapi lumer kali ya.. Haha.. Lebay banget. I'm just happy! Extraordinarily happy!

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Tanpa Nama (Her) #8

Turning on my handphone. Haha,, saya paling nggak bisa matiin handphone lama-lama. Five minutes after I turned on my handphone, there are 11 messages received. Semua dari klien. Apa sih yang saya harapkan?

Well, saya berhenti menunggu. Yasudah lah. I have made the first move, i don't need to make the second. Fyi aja nih, I still don't get it kenapa waktu itu dia bilang seperti itu.

Wah, sudah jam segini! I have appointment with an old friend. Daripada saya galau nggak jelas, hanging out with friend sepertinya adalah pilihan yang tepat.

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Tanpa Nama (Her) #7

25 hours 42 minutes. Still no reply. Good! You have humiliated yourself, girl! Kalau dipikir-pikir, salah saya sendiri sih kurang kerjaan banget ngirim-ngirim sms kayak gitu. Jadinya sakit hati sendiri kan.

1 message received. Oh, God! Dari diakah? Deg-degan pakai banget. Well, tetap harus dibuka juga kan? Mau tahu dari siapa? Ternyata dari provider saya yang baik hati. Siaul! Sudahlah, kayaknya nggak bakal dibalas juga. Turning off my handphone now. 

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Tanpa Nama (Her) #5

Today, I texted him. That's all. The end of the story.

Aaarrrrrggghhh,, I hate myself for losing control and contact him first!
Kok bisa? Well, setelah pertemuan tidak sengaja beberapa hari yang lalu, dia kembali mengganggu hidup saya (read: he keeps haunting my mind). Sampai tadi siang sewaktu saya sedang di perjalanan ke tempat klien, saya iseng create new message. This is what I typed : "I love you, stupid!". Just kidding, hehe. This is what I really typed : "Hey, how's life? Still angry with me?". And I just sent it like that. Aaaarrrrggghhhhh,, so corny! Begitu sending langsung saya panik pencet-pencet tombol cancel. But, that's too late. Now, I am too scared to think how he will reply.

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Tanpa Nama (Her) #3

Today i met him. Yes, him yang sudah hilang tanpa jejak selama dua bulan ini. Kami tidak sengaja bertemu, berpapasan lebih tepatnya. Kami terhenti saling menatap satu sama lain dari jarak kurang lebih lima meter. Well, I didn't count it of course. I didn't smile, neither did he. What i can remember is i couldn't take my eyes off of him. Maybe he couldn't too. Kalau bukan karena teman saya kemudian menyeret saya pergi dari situ tanpa 'ngeh' dengan apa yang terjadi, kami mungkin masih saling liat-liatan nggak penting di sana. Err, I am exaggerating. Dia berjambang sekarang. Saya tidak suka. But, who am i by the way? I miss him. Okay, please don't mind my previous sentence.

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Tanpa Nama (Her) #1

"aku pikir kamu beda dari yang lain, ternyata sama aja", he said cruelly to me. Damn you! who do you think you are? Males banget nggak sih kalau ada orang yang bukan siapa-siapa tapi bilang kayak gitu di depan muka kita. Minta dilempar sendal ya, Mas? Okay, a little correction : dia bukan bukan siapa-siapa. Saya nggak salah ketik ya. Kata 'bukan' nya memang saya ketik dua kali kok. Anda nggak salah baca. Well, he is sort of man who has influence on me lah. Dan yang dia bilang barusan seriously left big impression to me. He left me stand there by myself right after he said that cruel thing. Hello?? Saya ditinggal begitu saja lho! He didn't even mind himself to hear my comment. That was the last time i met him since two months ago. No phone call, no text, no meeting, nothing. Congratulation hey you for succesfully made me confused!

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